Don’t you just hate it when you’ve finally moved on, or think you’ve moved on, and then find yourself right back where you were before? Not to say where you were before is an awful place but it might not be the most healthy situation. It kind of crushes your confidence when you get this false illusion of strength, to only breakdown and let yourself fall back down. You were living your life thinking you are ready for life to bring you new and positive things.

But now here you are…waiting for the phone to ring.

But now here you are…waiting for your next hit.

But now here you are…waiting for that empty kiss.

But now here you are…waiting to hear the words “I Love You” when you know they carry no meaning.

But now here you are…waiting on life to pass you by.

But now here you are…waiting again to snap out of it.

Why are some of us destined to make the same mistakes over and over, while some can quickly escape? At some point we decide to give up, and assume maybe this is what’s meant to be if we can’t break the cycle. Maybe we aren’t meant to live the life we think we deserve; even when we are in the unhealthy cycle we know there’s something better, but it’s just not meant for us. Might as well embrace the situation we are stuck in and just deal with the consequences. We even talk ourselves into believing that maybe this time the situation will change for the better.

No matter how many times you may fall back down, get up. You’ve experience that moment of strength, even if it was an illusion, and you know how much better off and happier you were. Feeling that again is worth you trying once more. You may have to try multiple times to finally reach your full strength potential, but once you get there it’ll have been worth it. Never settle for anything, but what you know you truly deserve. Life just sometimes makes us work harder for it, so when we reach our bliss we can truly enjoy and appreciate it.


2 thoughts on “Relapse

  1. Sometimes it’s okay to just coast – to go with the flow – as well. Strength can sometimes come as an inspiration when you’re least expecting it.
    Great post 🙂

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